Wow...I don't even know where to begin... I guess I'll just talk about this last month.
So yeah, August was my most productive month ever, fuelled by bunch silly reasons I drowned myself in an unhealthy amount of drawing. My objective? Prove to myself that I can also do that, refined pretty looking art that takes days of work to finish.
I also punched myself far far away from comfort zone. Backgrounds, perspective, rendering, composition study (woot for golden ratios), wings, etc... and many other things were put at test during this little art outrage. I think this was necessary to compensate for my general lack of activity.
But outside that...It was just a challenge. A challenge that I made to myself to see to draw as much as I could, even If I didn't felt like drawing or I didn't had any ideas, even if I would feel sick just of picking up pen I'd still had to keep going and drawing...and it looks like at this moment I can do it for one month until I'm completely exhausted.
And that's it. I really don't feel like keeping up this pace because I don't learn anything. I just repeat old routine over and over again and the more time I put into something , the better it will look at the end BUT its just one of many variables that give worth to an art piece. And I need to go further, this is not the quality I seek.
...and this also brings in a different topic. I really have a mixed feeling about my own art. I'm never proud of it, I don't have any single drawing that I could just point out and say "Yep, I'm proud of that work", which is not a great way to keep motivation and self esteem high. That's where feedback and comments compensate this point. I love reading and answering every single comment that I get. All what I do, is just materialize my vision. All what you do, is giving it life and purpose.
which is really different from what other say "artist is the one who gives the life to his work" nah...not in my case, I create it and move on to next one.
And it really makes a difference in me when I see my work living
outside, when I see others appreciating/talking about it. This is where I mention Equestria Daily featuring me.
I already have a small history with that site, Its always been a great source of inspiration AND motivation. Since the first time one my drawings got featured there in drawfriends until nowadays recent artist feature (that I stumbled upn by myself accidentally (that also explains absurd amount of views on my page)) which is a new milestone to me. EQD has featured countless great artists, that's how I found out many of them (which I still look up to). And having my name among those lists is actually a really big deal to me ^^
To be honest I was feeling really down due to the fact that I worked really hard and still couldn't meet the kind of quality that I strove for. But this small feature made whole situation better.
I am honestly grateful for everyone who watches me. I go through many ups and downs, and you guys are what make the ups higher, and downs insignificant.