Looks like I've reached the point that I feared. The point when dumb and blind love of drawing isn't enough to feed my motivation of actually doing it. And this feel is horrible
Its been 3-4 years since I started drawing and they were pretty much the most fulfilled years of my life! The excitement of exploring a whole new world that suddenly appeared before me, I think that first impression was what fuelled my motivation and hunger of drawing since then.
The last 3 months were struggle-ish for me, I thought that the only thing that was stopping me from arting more was the time limitation due to the school, so summer vacation would be perfect time to return back to my beloved activity!
But I was proven wrong.
I know what a professional advice would be: "It doesn't matter what you draw, it doesn't matter if it sucks, it doesn't matter that you're not good at it, what matters is establishing a routine, and with time you'll overcome all your difficulties."
But this motivational advice alone is not enough of an objective to follow.
In the beginning my main source of inspiration and motivation were other artists in the MLP community
My objective was to become one of them! To be good as those mysterious wizards that create awesome art, and maybe even inspire others!
After years of intense work and pure dedication, I was slowly being recognized as an artist. I started to get more feedback, more views and watchers. And I felt accomplished.
I'm still not as good as my other artist crushes, but I know I will never be like them, because Its foolish to try to follow someone else's footsteps.
So yeah...I enjoy doing art, and now I need a new objective. Irrationally falling in love with something else that will make me do unhealthy things like discarding sleeping and eating in order to do what I love.
eughh...I guess that's all I got to say.
This situation really sucks
Shut up and draw doesn't work any more ;n;
Listening to: Instrumental music
Reading: internet news
Watching: all the movies in the existence
Playing: Ugh...idle games
Eating: microwaved pizza
Drinking: Mango ice tea